I was reading on babycenter.com about my baby's development lately. At week 6 the heart broke into two chambers, eye lids started developing, week 7 liver started processing red blood cells and hands and feet were forming. This week the tail (tail bone) is almost gone and in position, fingers and toes are starting to "bud", eye lids are all the way formed. I'm sure a lot more has gone on but those were the things that stood out to me. I could not help but cry as I was reading. I love this child so much! I love to sit and visualize the hand of God forming ever little cell in this child's body as I go about my day. What an incredible thing to imagine! Who am I that I would be so blessed? I believe I added the verse in Psalm 127 in my last post that says children are a blessing from God. I also would like to add that pregnancy is a blessing from God (though 1st trimester sickness I could do without). It is a chance to really explore and find God as He creates every part of this little being. Every part, hand crafted by the creator of the universe! And to think such perfection happens inside my body. Blows my mind!
This week and last have been very terrible in regards to being sick. I cannot seem to make it through a full day without having to stop and lay down. The nausea is overwhelming and I have done everything I can to hold it in. I hate throwing up but I sometimes wonder if perhaps I should just let it fly; perhaps I might feel better. Here's how my normal day looks now:
Wake up around 6:30 - 7am, head downstairs and eat something before my body has a chance to feel nausea. Head upstairs to take a shower. Lay down for 15-20 minutes to try to overcome the nausea. Watch Hannah until the nanny gets here at 8am. Go to work. Head downstairs every hour or more to find something to eat and refill the water bottle. by 2pm lay down until the nausea subsides. Work until 3:30 when the nanny leaves. Lay on the couch as Hannah plays (or climbs all over me) and I try my best not to get sick. Ernest gets home around 4:30 and watches Hannah and makes something to eat for dinner while I die on the couch; or if I'm able to make it I'll work another hour or two. If I can't make it to put Hannah to sleep I head to bed at 6:30. Otherwise I put Hannah to bed and am in bed myself by 8pm.
When I can think past the nausea I try to reflect upon what God is doing within me to form my child. I believe that pregnancy is a powerful spiritual journey. When I was pregnant with Hannah it was the most spiritual journey I have ever been on. I could feel God's presence as He formed her inside of me. So I am devoting this pregnancy as well to my spiritual journey with God. I dedicate my little Blueberry to HIM and realize this is His child that He is gifting to me for a time. I have done nothing in my life to deserve this little one. Indeed Psalm 127:3 is true that "... children are a heritage of the Lord. The fruit of the womb is a reward." Hannah has been one of the greatest rewards I have been given and I already feel the same way about this little Blueberry inside of me.
One thing that has been quite the problem is motion sickness. A moving car makes me sick, and sometimes walking around I feel sick. So my workouts have stopped completely until I can get over this hump. I also am house bound most of the time as I just hate feeling so sick in the car. Please pray for me! I'm heading to a coworkers house tomorrow morning (Friday) for some training. It will be the first time in a care in over a week. I pray that I am okay. I am just thankful that Hannah is staying over night with my in-laws. I don't think I could handle motion sickness, driving, and my daughter all at once.
I'm going through a book called "Nine Months to a Miracle." I've only made it through month one but have been very blessed by what I've read. If you know anyone that is pregnant tell them about this book. It is a spiri
Not literal pain, but more of sick sick sick! Whereas I use to exercise 40-50 minutes every morning, vigeriously, I cannot make it 15 minutes before feeling overwhelmingly sick.
But good news! I ordered the Hypnobabies Eliminate Nausea Now MP3 to help with this. I cannot wait to work on my queue word. Here's hoping the rest of this trimester can be mostly sick free!
I also started my journey with God through this. It is crazy how close I feel God when I'm pregnant, almost like I can feel Him forming this child inside of me. It is a powerful journey and this morning I spent some time with God asking him to lead me on this journey, to walk with me and guide me. I don't want to do this, and especially birthing, without HIM by my side.
So right now I'm eating every hour to avoid this overwhelming sick feeling, but I still feel sick. Ugh! I'm off to grab some more water and... you guessed it... EAT!
Happy to report we found out we are expecting baby #2 the first week of January! We started trying last month (April) not expecting it to be really easy. I tested one week later with a negative, two weeks (the day my new cycle started) and still a negative. Gave up testing at that point. Two days ago (May 6th) I started feeling hungry non-stop (a new thing for me as I eat every 2 hours and am never hungry) and felt sick off and on. That evening I decided to take the test remembering feeling this way when I was pregnant with Hannah. Positive! And so the fun begins :)
I am 5.5 weeks pregnant meaning I am feeling the affects a full 2.5 weeks earlier than with Hannah. Also I can already tell a difference in my abdominal area. Is it possible to have it change so early or could it just be bloating? Still keeping up with vigorous exercising 5 days a week and my calories are still around 1700 despite eating more frequently.
For the record, we tried for a girl so we'll see if the theory is correct about how to increase the likelihood of a certain gender. However I would be more than thrilled with either a boy or girl! I also wanted a February baby but miscalculated and will end up with a late December or early January baby instead. Not an ideal time but me bad for not thinking it all the way through.